Durian

Do you like durian? Or, do you love durian? Well, it's just a simple question but different answer makes a difference. I think "love" can express stronger than "like".

I don't eat durian, for the past 26 years+. Yet, I can't say I don't like durian because I don't even know how it tastes. For me, durian is like a stranger I meet in the street. I don't have much feeling towards this stranger and I don't feel like approaching him/her to make friend.

But this stranger came to me yesterday. My company organized a durian feast yesterday. Everybody was very excited about it. Some of them ate little lunch to "reserve" their stomach for this "King of the Fruit". My colleagues were trying their very best to seduce me to this feast. And, frankly speaking, I was quite convinced and so I went.

A strong fragrance came to my nose and a durian was served in front of me. Somebody told me that was the best of the best and suits beginner very well. I tasted and felt like vomit at the first bite. I tried a smaller bite later... the fragrance slowly spreading over my tongue while I was chewing and slowly went down to my throat. Erm... not so bad! It tasted like an over "masak" nangka, I thought. At the end of the feast, I only managed to take three pieces... all in different flavour and colour. As a conclusion, durian is not so bad. Still, I couldn't get myself addicted as other durian lovers did.

It became a hot topic in the office even the feast was over. And it becomes my topic today to share with you guys and gals. I should say sorry to durian lovers as I can only appreciate the kindness and taste of durian until this level and not further. I won't say I like durian... I will say: durian? Taste ok!

Daddy's Barney Show

Anyone knows about the Barney Show?

Well, I don't think you will know if you are a 70s or 80s baby. During our time, the famous show or cartoon are The Sesame Street, Tom & Jerry, Smurfs, Heman, Transformers... etc.

Barney is a purple dinosaur. There are three dinosaurs in the Barney Show: Barney (the purple dinosaur), Baby Bop (the green dinosaur) , and BJ (the yellow dinosaur). I didn't notice that Barney Show is so popular nowadays, until yesterday when I was in a shopping mall.

My niece was with me yesterday and she insisted to go to the Barney Show. Adults are not allowed to enter the compound. So, I left my niece in the compound with other children. In order to keep an eye on her, I went to the second floor of the shopping mall so that I could see her.

I was not very interested in the Barney Show but the parents around me. The show started in about 5 minutes. Two young DJ came out first. They played games with the children and asked some questions about the Barney Show. As I mentioned earlier, I was not interested in the show, I was looking at the people around me. And I found something funny.

Before that, I should mention that one of the young DJ was a pretty western girl. She looks friendly and nice. I think children like her a lot. But I think daddies like her more. Most daddies were holding camera or video camera. I thought that camera was supposed to take down the precious moment of daddies' children or the Barney... but it was not!

I was standing behind one daddy. And because it was very crowded, he had to lift up his camera high enough to take down the show on stage. So, I could see what he was taking. He was not focusing on Barney or his kid, but the young lady DJ. From the beginning until the end, he was focusing on the young lady DJ, zooming in and out... What a nice dad! I wonder how disappointed his kid would be when watching the show back home....

Kid: "Dad, where is my Barney? Where is my Baby Bop and BJ?"
Dad: "......"
Kid: "Mum, why daddy keep taking the jie jie and not my Barney?"
Mum: "......grrr...!!!"
Kid: "Wa~~~ Wa~~~ Wa~~~" (start crying)
Mum: "Next time don't bring our boy boy to the Barney Show anymore!"
Dad: "...oh..."

The Pretender

We have a lot of pretenders around us. My definition of "pretender" mostly refers to strangers. For example, a girl or a guy we saw in the shopping mall or cafe. Well, maybe I should give some examples:

Say you are sitting alone in a cafe and looking at people around you. There is a guy sitting alone at another table. He found that you are looking at him and he thought you are looking at him with some admiration. He starts to behave funny. He pretends he doesn't know you are looking at him... he pretends he doesn't care you are looking at him... and he pretends he is cool and tough. So, this "he" is the pretender.

Another classic example is: a guy is in a LRT station... while waiting for LRT, he looks around. He found a girl standing at the other side. Just that one look, the girl thought the guy finds her attractive. So, she starts to pretend. Same thing, she pretends she doesn't care but she actually does. She looks to other side, pretends to be elegant or cute... And the worst is she thought she is pretty!

Those pretenders I mentioned above are rather passive. Some pretenders are quite active in a sense that they will catch your attention by doing something "owesome". But, they thought that is cool! For example, a girl would say something she thought funny and laugh out loud to catch a guy's attention. For any normal people like you and me, we may only want to find out what's going on without any other intention. But with that one look, the girl then thought she got it! So, she will continue acting funny and say funny things...

I am not a pretender. At least, I don't think I pretend in front of anybody. And I don't find any pretenders among my friends. But I am always naughty when I see these pretenders. And I have different tactics towards different type of pretenders.

For passive pretenders, I will catch their attention by giving them a long look. So, they thought I am interested in them (Indeed, I am! But is not the way they thought!). I will then slowly enjoy the result I got. I will see how they react, and give some response, when necessary, to fulfil their imaginations. Well, this could make them happy for a whole day... so, why not? Sometimes, the result I got can be quite entertaining!

For active pretenders, the best tactic is "don't look, don't hear, and don't talk"! They want me to look at them, NO WAY!!! They think they are pretty or smart, I will make them feel that they are not! I am interested in anything but them. With this, they will start feeling uneasy and I will get the result I want. You can see the change in their actions and expressions. And, this can be even more enjoyable and entertaining than the previous one.

I like doing this. It's like a game and i'm controlling the game! I admit I am naughty and bad. I know I am. That's me, Fion C!

I hate ghost movie

There are a lot of ghost movie in the market nowadays... especially these few years. I just can't figure out why these movies suddenly become so popular in the market... and there are new ghost movies coming up every now and then.

Well... I'm not the fan of ghost movie. I just don't like watching ghost movie. The very old fashion chinese ghost movie always click with the chinese zombie - "Jiang Shi" in mandarin, or "Keong Si" in cantonese. They looks very unreal and funny. They will jump here and there with their hands up all the time... and they all wear the same clothes with the same expression. These ghost movies are not scary but boring.

Later, I found some development and improvement in chinese ghost movie. There are no more chinese zombie but a ghost looks more like real human. I mean look more like you and me... well, that's scary! With the development in sound technology... the sound effect sometimes is the element that scares me off and not the movie itself. It's like something showing on the screen and out of sudden "yie~~~~ BANG BANG"!! So, I am frightened by the sound effect and not the scene. By that time I calm down myself, the scary scene already over.

And now, those ghost movie not really talking about ghost but with some objective behind the scene. The producer is trying to convey some message... it's not just about ghost! Well, this is a good sign as ghost movie becomes more meaningful! But, I dislike watching ghost movie even more. Ghost movies nowadays look so real as if it will happen around you and me. I hate that!

I am a female, there is no doubt about it. And, I am a female with full imagination. I still can recall one of my experience after watching those "looks-real" ghost movie. I thought I will like ghost movie after finding they are getting more meaningful. So I watched one of it... and after watching it... I began my imagination. The movie already over, and it was late at night. And I was sleeping alone in my room. I CONTINUE THE STORY MYSELF!!! Oh gosh!!! I think my story line is even better than the producer of that movie... I brought all the character into life and to my room... argh! And after that, I don't watch ghost movie anymore! The most scary part is not the movie itself, but my imagination after the movie! Erm... that's not very good!

So I would suggest people with full imagination like me not to watch ghost movie, unless you like that feeling! As for me, don't ever ask me out for ghost movie. It won't work! Never!

I prefer comedy!

他有来过吗？

他走了吗？还是他根本没有来过？

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2003年

下雨了，地上湿湿的。。。
走在路上要特别小心，以免水溅到了脚。
所以我走得很慢。。。眼里没有别人，只有我的脚。

“他都会和我共撑一把伞。。。” 我总是忘记带伞出门。

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到家了，家里暗暗的。。。
走在门廊要特别小心，以免踢到了一旁的鞋架。
所以我走得很慢。。。眼里没有别的东西，只有灯钮。

“他都会留着一盏灯。。。” 我总是忘记开了灯才出门。

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有多久没有整理家了？
这还是我的家吗？
我总是很小心。。。
可是，我总是忘记！

“他都会整理家。。。” 他有洁癖，喜欢整齐干净的感觉！
我记得了，是时候整理家了。

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2004年

街上的人来来往往。。。
每一天都有好多人和我擦身而过。
是因为有缘分，所以擦身？
还是因为没缘分，所以而过？

“他都会牵着我的。。。” 我总是记得他会牵着我。

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路上的车来来往往。。。
每一天都有好多车和我走着同样的路。
是因为只有这一条路，所以大家都走？
还是因为大家都走，所以我跟着走？

“他都会带着我走这一条路。。。” 我总是记得他说这一条路最好走。

只有这一条最好走吗？
是不是该换条新路线了？
别条路的风景，会更美丽吧？
那一条路也可以到我要去的地方。

我总是记得。。。
可是，我总是忘记。。。我选择忘记！
我记得他来过，我记得他走了！
我选择忘记他走了！
他走了吗？

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2005年

天有些阴，应该会下雨。
我拿了雨伞准备出门，顺手开了灯把门关上。
真的下雨了！整个城市正在接收洗礼。。。
我记得了，我还活着

Happy Father's Day~

Father's Day is coming...

This day always reminds me of my Dad. Well, of course Father's Day always reminds us of our Dad, but it is kind of different because my Dad is already not around.

It has been so long that I didn't call "Dad". I used to call my Dad as Dad, Daddy, Papa, Pa... but I can't call anymore. I never realize that the feeling of not able to call somebody as Dad is so sad, until he left. Sometimes when I am alone, I will recall of those days when I can call him Dad... or sometimes when I am upset, I will say the word "Dad" to nobody but to the memory of him in my heart.

Until today, I still feel the pain and regret for not doing two things before he left:

I didn't iron the clothes for my Dad the day before he left. I told my Dad, "Dad, I'm tired, maybe i iron for you tomorrow." But there was no tomorrow for him, and that tomorrow he was not able to ask anymore.

I didn't ask him to stop repairing our house water tank when something told me I should stop my Dad. But, it's all too late... things just happened and he left.

I'm sorry, Dad... I really miss you... I miss your voice, I miss your laughter, I miss your scold, I miss your hugs...

I love you, Dad... Happy Father's Day!

"The Invigilators"- Part II

Well... I never expect I will have to continue telling you guys about this minority - "The Invigilators".

I'm still in my exam week right now... In yesterday exam, I was sitting in another exam hall... so I had a chance to meet some other tribe members from "The Invigilators".

I found they are nicer, more friendly... and guess what, they are FAST!! Hoho~ At least there are some exceptions in this slow-motion-people tribe. So, I decided to change the expression on my face and put on a smile :) I thought it's gonna to be a bright new day~

Later... I found out that I made a mistake! I realize people in this tribe not necessarily slow. They could have some other problems, like blur, clumsy and careless... And this is the most scary things in the exam hall! I think some of them just joined the tribe, that's why they are still fast enough like normal human beings. But, they are blur... How can an invigilator be blur in distributing exam papers? By that time they finish "analyzing" which paper to be distributed to which roll... the exam already started...

So, maybe I can roughly categorize their tribe members:

Old members
Behavior : Slow
Character : Better, but not much

New members
Behavior : Still fast
Character : Blur, clumsy

Conclusion: Bringing new blood to this tribe is proved to be useless. It will only create more and more of them... Argh!

Suddenly, I feel a fresh pain for our next generation... for them can't escape from facing the next-generation of "The Invigilators", who are highly probable not to be better but worse... and I feel the pain for having our next generation to go through the same pain like their ancestor, without any ability to change!

We need miracle...

"The Invigilators" - Part I

Anyone finds slow-motion-people in real life? Well, they actually exist almost everywhere in Malaysia and have their own tribe. Everyone in the tribe is doing things in slow motion. I know a few tribes, like "The MPSJ", "The TigerBank", "The Invigilators"... etc.

I met "The Invigilators" today. They are the minority among the slow-motion-people and only can be found in the exam hall. I was in the exam hall this afternoon and a guy sitting in front of me raised hands for extra exam booklet. "The Invigilators" was notified, but without immediate response. The guy continued raising his hands... no response. He made eye contact... no response. He looked uncomfortably around... waiting... waiting... and STILL WAITING!!! Mind you... we are in the exam hall... and of course not for waiting but fighting with time and the stupid fussy irritating exam questions!!!

Are we suppose to expect this slow-motion-people tribe to become one of the problem in the exam when we already have many things to worry about? We are worrying about the formula, the theories, the model answer... but for Malaysian students, we have one thing extra - "The Invigilators"!!! Yeah... surprise!!! We actually have something extra!!! @&(*&#!@(*&!)@*^@!!!

Gosh! Why are this slow-motion-people forming "The Invigilators"? And they always have a proud face say "Hey, I'm your invigilator! I'm slow, so what?" They are not concern about whether candidates have time or not nor passing or not... they are just concern of how to be SLOW!!!

And later, much later... only one of the tribe members slowly walked towards the guy, slowly took out the booklet, slowly passed the booklet to him, slowly turned around, and slowly walked back. Everything slooooooooowly!!!

Something has to be done to get rid of this slow-motion-people tribe. I don't know what, but something has to be done... I can tolerate slow but not their kind of slow... they know they are slow but they are proud to be it! That's the worst part!!!

"Call me the head"

My mom got scolded yesterday for being conscious and concern as a resident in my apartment.

It happened yesterday morning while my mom was washing her car. They were two malay guys trying to open the developer's storeroom using a screw driver. My mom just asked : "What are you doing here?" One of them then began shouting : "You shut up!!! You bullshit!!! You busybody!!! You didn't see anything here!!! You go back to wash you car!!!" My mom didn't walk away and finally the other guy apologized. But it's not end yet, who knows what is their motive?

Did anybody realize that the sentence from my mom ended in a question mark? But the sentence from them ended with exclamation marks! And they even tried to threatened my mom as if woman always afraid of a man... who the hell makes them having this feeling that woman always afraid to stand up for wrong doings?

My mom is not going to be silent! If they are right in this situation, why are they so worried of being revealed? If they have got permission from the developer to enter the storeroom, as told by them, why were they using a screw driver instead of a key? If they are right in doing this, why are they so over reacted when being saw by my mom? There are paints and tiles in the storeroom, who knows what are they trying to do with it? And guess what, one of them is the committee head!!!

What's the point of having a committee head who only says "call me the head" without behave like one?

I'm just a lil' bit slow

My friend said she is not a good blogger... so am I then... I just get started with this stuff when it's already quite well known for the others... I am always slow in all these stuffs... but I'm not dumb ok? I'm just a bit slow... yeah, just a bit!! It's not so bad then...