你快乐所以我快乐

一直以来我都说：现在是快乐的季节，出门记得要带笑容！但不知道什么时候换季了，我快乐不起来。原来我进入了伤心的季节，但我出门不习惯带眼泪。我的眼泪凝固在眼眶里，心显得特别沉重。

伤心的季节是很难过的，出门除了要带眼泪，很多人还会带着小器、猜忌、疑心和敏感。我是个懒惰的人，不喜欢带那么多无谓的东西出门，所以我觉得很累，不是身理的疲惫，而是心变得倦怠。在伤心的季节里，每个人都抢着当主角，渐渐地变得自我，甚至无法理喻。

我也在度过伤心的季节，但我选择做一个配角，我还是习惯于“你快乐所以我快乐”。虽然如此，在忙了一大转后，我有时还是会不经意想：为什么每个人都在抢当主角的时候我要把自己的情绪摆在最后一位？在我的心觉得累的时候，有没有人也来包容一下？

很多时候就是那么的无奈，但无奈的不是不被谅解，而是被误解。最无奈的是在被误解的时候，解释是没有用的。

Time for a new phone

Not sure my handphone was thinking of taking a bath or commit suicide, it fell into toilet bowl and ended its own life! So sad......

I went into a public toilet on Monday evening and put my handphone besides the flush button. It fell into the toilet bowl when I was about to wee wee. I immediately switched it off until next day morning. I thought it would be ok by then, but it was not!

I had a day without a mobile phone yesterday. A day without a mobile phone it's like a day without a hook - I can't hook to my family and friends... I had to use public phone to call Joe yesterday, and the last time I talked on public phone was about 8 years ago...

Today I'm using my sister's old mobile phone, Motorola C380. Not sure what phone to buy yet...... suggestion?

Our first outing

Jo's company had a Family Day at Sunway Lagoon. It was also Jayden's first family outing. I was quite excited about it and bought him a baby swimming suit even we were not sure which park to bring him to.

The day before, we decided to bring him to the Wild Life Park and Amusement Park, not the Water Park. It was a wrong decision! Jayden was not interested in anything he couldn't touch and he is too small to enjoy facilities in the Amusement Park. However, he had some great moments...



This was the first few spots we went to. Jayden was full of energy and was excited about what he sees. He was trying to touch the animals...



This was about few hours later, Jayden was tired. We had a short rest. He was attracted by the turkey. We continued our journey to somewhere where a lot of pigeons and turkeys were running around. Jayden was very excited when he saw animals running around him. I think he prefers something more real and interactive.



This was taken outside the butterfly area. We were about to leave... Jayden was quite tired but happy for his first outing with daddy and mummy.

Daddy's little fan

We left Jayden in his babycot again that day! He was excited as usual and played his 'sit and stand' game again. Suddenly, he stopped what he was doing......



Jayden was standing still and looking at one direction, with full concentration! Something caught his attention fully!



A little concert was going on... daddy was playing guitar and singing song for him! Both daddy and baby enjoyed the show! And mummy enjoyed taking photo.

I always like to see this father and son interaction. It is so sweet and nice...

Jayden's new found love

Jayden is crawling around and always hold on something to stand up. This can be very dangerous if we don't pay full attention on him. We decided to convert his babycot into 'playpen'. We can just leave him inside with his toys, at the same time fully utilise the babycot which was not in use since Jayden turned into 4 months old.

Jayden seems to like the idea! He likes to play 'stand and sit' in his playpen.



He will first hold on the bar to support himself from standing up...



After a while, he releases his hands. Then, he sits back or falls back to the mattress. He loves doing this and laughs out loud continuously...



He will play with his toys for a while when he feels tired from 'stand and sit' game. But he will soon back to his 'stand and sit' game again!



See! He is standing again!

I think we found him new love. The conversion makes him realise how fun the babycot can be!

Orange lover

Jayden starts tasting all sorts of food like cereals, biscuits, potatoes, carrots, bananas, oranges, apples...... I think he likes orange the most.



Jayden becomes very happy and excited when he sees Jo pealing off the orange. He becomes impatience if it takes too much time for the orange to reach his mouth. And he will start nagging... until we feed him.



He tastes it seriously, slowly sucks out the juice from the orange (we still haven't let Jayden eat the whole orange). He will rest for a while before he resumes sucking. He cries if it is not enough for him and laugh out loud if he knows there are more oranges for him.

He is a orange lover, just like his dad and grandma!

My cheerful 8 months old

Jayden can sit upright without support now. And, he can stand too! He learns up new skills in a faster pace than before.



Jayden looked very proud in his sitting position. He looked straight into my camera when I called him for photo taking. I guess he must be thinking of taking down this very moment, an evidence of his great progress!



Jayden is very sensitive to sound. He will immediately search for the source when he hears one. Jo was making some noise and he looked up immediately.



He can stand for quite a while with one hand or both hands holding on something. He is mastering this skill and starting to move step by step from one place to another. This is the moment I am waiting for. Jayden looked so serious in learning up his new skill, yet also wanted to look relax in front of the camera.

Jayden is growing up well and becomes more cheerful than before. He laughs a lot nowadays! Just a simple 'baby', 'good night', 'ding dong', 'excuse me'... can make him laugh out loud. I like his laughing. He is such a happy baby!

Nursing harmony

Jayden and I are back to nursing harmony!

Jo found me a few useful articles about nursing strike and I think these may be reasons causing Jayden on nursing strike:

(1) Cold or stuffy nose that causes breathing difficult
(2) Discomfort from teething
(3) Fear that mum may yell when he bites during nursing

Jayden has stuffy nose recently, also teething. He bit my nipple once during nursing and got my warning from doing that. What I have to do is to tackle those reason one by one.

I started using Sterimar that helps clearing his nose, massaging his gum that helps easing his teething pain, holding him more often to have more skin contacts with him. Jo also created games which allow Jayden to realise that nursing is actually fun and great! Little by little, we finally got Jayden back to my breast last Wednesday night.

The first time he accepted nursing after nursing strike, he sucked for nearly 40 minutes non-stop!! But I had to carry him in craddle hold and walking while nursing him. Two days later, he was ok with lying position. And after few more days of monitoring, I finally convinced myself that my boy is back to normal. In fact, Jayden enjoys nursing more than before!